Today is my Mama's 53rd Birthday. 

Yehey! Busog na busog nanaman ako. Mama cooked spag and since it's her bday, I bought her a cake and an ice cream. Sweet!? Hindi naman talaga ako ganong ka-open kay mama. Naalala ko nung una nyang makita ung love letters nung ex-bf ko sa wallet ko. May I confront si muji. 

Ma: Sino si Dan?

Me: ha? (nakikinig ako ng music nun. nakaearphone ako tas biglang may gentong banat? nagulat naman ako ng todo-todo! haha!)

Ma: Ikaw ha! Pumatol ka sa bading? Ayusin mo lang. Pag yan nalaman ni Papa.

Me: Wala un! hahah! sabay plug ulet ng earphones. (Nung time na un e break na kame ni Dan. Ndi ko pa naitabi ung mga corny lab letters na un. haha!)

Sige nga?! Kung ikaw ung sabihan ng mom mo? Anong reaction mo? Syempre parang gusto mong tumambling  ng buong giliw dba? Haha! Pero lab na lab ko 'tong mama ko kahit na ndi ako masyadong vocal sa mga nararamdaman ko. At kahit na mejo nakakatorete ung boses nya pag nagagalit. Pag natataranta. Pag nakukunsumi. Love na love ko yan! Our Moms will definitely have a very special place in our hearts. Super saludo ako sa mga moms! Since the day we've been born they've been sacrificing a lot. Yung tipong kakainin na lang nila, ibibigay pa nila sa mga anak nila? Hehe. Maybe I'm just so lucky for having a mom like her. :)

In fairness, ngayon lang ako nagiging gento ka cheesy when it comes to my family ah. Dati hindi naman ako ganito. Dahil ba loveless ako ngayon? LOL. Tagal na rin ah. 

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! WE LOVE YOU! :)

Canceled. Our meet up was canceled due to this annoying infinitesimal small amount of liquids at equilibrium surrounded by its vapor pouring heavily a day after we decided to meet. Nakakainis! Why is it every time I'll go on a date or simpleng landian e this rain always accompanies me? Wala talaga sa hulog.

Pero I also noticed that whenever it rains, good things happen. In this case, with Nate, Tinamad na lang tlga akong i-pursue kahapon since his flight (Davao to Manila) was delayed and I also have to leave the office earlier due to this detrimental weather. Ayoko ngang mastranded. So un, we weren't able to meet so text text na lang muna. :(

Ewan ko lang pero kinikilig talaga ako pag katext ko si Nate. Yiheee! Mejo mabagal nga lang ung phasing ng conversation namen sa text which sometimes get me so anxious and paranoid. Impatient ako sa mga gantong bagay. hehe.

Sana umalis na ton bagyong to.

As of 4:00 PM TODAY, TROPICAL STORM ”JUANING” WAS ESTIMATED BASED ON RADAR, SATELLITE AND SURFACE DATA AT 60 KM NORTHEAST OF BAGUIO CITY (16.8°N; 121.1°E) WITH MAXIMUM SUSTAINED WINDS OF 85 KPH NEAR THE CENTER AND GUSTINESS OF UP TO 100 KPH. IT IS FORECAST TO MOVE NORTHWEST AT 17 KPH.
Source: PAGASA-DOST

from here

Juaning go away nang maka-aura na ako! hahaha!!!

Tomorrow is the day. Me and Nate will be meeting in his house tomorrow night. I'm not the one who arranged this. SIYA un! ayiheeee! kinikilig ako ng todo-todo. Parang gusto kong magplanking sa gitna ng bus kanina on my way home when I received a text message from him.

Currently, Nate is in Davao with his family. That's what he said. E nung sinabi nya un na we'll meet e akala ko ngayon na. atat na ata tlga? So bukas nga talaga. hahah! E kasi naman. Pero for the record, Neither I nor he mentioned anything about us having sex. Pero kung yun yung gusto nya, sino ba naman ako para tumanggi?! HAHAH! But seriously, I want this relationship (friendship! or malay naten magtuloy-tuloy?) of ours to be smooth and clean as much as possible. Wala na. As I type this blog entry, nakangiti na lang ako ng pagkalaki-laki. We're texting at the moment. And this is the first time he added "Mwuaah" as his concluding remark. siyeeeeeeet! hahahah! Ma-ishare lang. :)

Tomorrow, magpapalung-palo ako sa work para matapos ako ng maaga. Inspired to the core? hahah! Naeexcite na ko people. whaaaah! -_-

 I've met this guy from PR a while ago. This morning. Let's call him Nate. We talked about his past relationship and how woefully his five year relationship with his bf ended up. It was just a week ago when he discovered he's being cheated by his boyfriend. Pity. Annoyed. I just can't imagine how emo he's been for the past few days. And now, he said he's fine. Though I think he's just finding someone who can alleviate the sadness he's going through. Eto, I enabled him to release what he's been keeping inside him. Pero ayos lang. natuwa naman ako sa conversation namen. One thing. I think I've ignited a small but can be easily developed feeling for him. Darn. Ambilis ko tlgang ma-fall sa mga gentong eksena. Alam mo un? ung kahit simpleng reply na..."hehe" kinikilig ka na? Masyadong marupok? Syempre before the "hehe" reply, I found some reasons to start with such feeling. haha! Here's a piece of our conversation...

Feel Good Song for singles. <3

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/michael-buble-lyrics/haven_t-met-you-yet-lyrics.html }

Last night I  have raped the repeat button of my keyboard by playing some instrumental love songs which I have downloaded out of boredom and Emoness. Single kaya ako! So I have the rights to do such. And nostalgia came along. My past relationship memories quite rested in my head.

My last serious relationship was Two years ago. It was with my classmate. Let's call him Dan. Dan and I broke up after 1 year and it was me who put an end to it. It's just because I felt like I'm no longer happy with what we're doing. With what kind of relation we have. It came to a point that I said I love you without substance. Without meaning. Just to make him feel he is being loved which I think he's not. Not anymore. I may be bad for doing that so I have decided to put a stopper to it. I don't want to further complicate things. I broke up with him a day after our anniversary. It was dawn.

Now, I feel so alone. It's been 2 non-kilig-moments years. I want to get involved with someone. Again. And this time, I'll be more true to him. With what I'm feeling. No sugar-coatings. Promise! hehe. Nakakainis talaga pag nasa ganitong state ka! kung anu-anong naiisip mo. grrrr!

I'll just keep on waiting. At syempre dapat lumandi rin. Chos. From here

Excited very much! It's been 2 years since my friend introduced to me the band All time low. All time Low is an American pop punk band formed in 2003 having Alexander Gaskarth as the vocalist and rhythm guitarist, lead guitarist and backing vocalist Jack Barakat, bassist and back vocalist Zachary Merrick, and  Rian Dawson on drums.

Dear Maria, Count me in was the first song I 've listened from ATL. At Halos paulit-ulit ko un pinatugtog! hehe. And from there, I started downloading mp3's of their songs. I just like the voice of Alex. At ang gwapo pa! Shet! Sino bang hindi maiinlove sa looks ni dear Papa Alex?! haha! 

So when my friend told me that they're coming this September, sus! I almost jumped out of excitement.I checked out the details of their upcoming concert at parang gusto kong tumambling sa mahal ng tickets! 

Actually, the VIP tickets are now sold out. Over hyper ang mga ATL fanatics! Hindi ko rin sila masisisi kasi maganda talaga ung quality ng music ng ATL. Malaman ung lyrics. You can easily relate to it! As in! Damn. I'm really excited to watch ATL rocking the Araneta Colesium LIVE! If given the chance, I really want to see Alex up close! Elyamae saison teh? haha!!! syeeeet! I just can't wait. 

Yes. This will gonna be my first blog entry guys. By the way, Call me JM. I'm a science major graduate from one of the most well known university here in the Philippines. And I am currently employed in a university doing research stuffs. Naks!

I have decided to create this blog site for me to share some piece of my not-so-exciting-but-trying-to-be-elating life. I'm a gay kiddo. But very discrete. I know my sexual preference but man, I'm not that kind of person who has enough confidence to show the world how gay I am. Yeah! People might say that it's OK to be gay. Ayos lang yan! Tanggap ka namen! but hey! you don't know what its like. Don't even try to fit in to the shoes of other people if you're not that aware of what kind of emotional hardships they're going through. Baka mapahiya ka lang!

So basically, I just want to share my personal experiences on a daily basis. Sana! I hope my schedule will allow me to do so. Excited much!